Well, I haven't really written in this thing lately so I thought maybe I should.

Things have been pretty good lately, I guess.  There hasn't been too much to complain about.  My parents have been deal-able.  They started on the college stuff again for a little while and I just got so mad I couldnt talk to them, I wasnt purposely ignoring them I just didnt have anything to say.  I think that gave it away and my mom somewhat apologized (she never apologizes for anything I dont think I've ever heard her say I'm sorry) and we havent really talked about it since, which I'm glad cause theres nothing to talk about, I still really want to go to western, probably even a little more now because I know that winter is coming and I absolutely hate winter.

VBS is now over, and that went pretty good.  It was fun, I like working with kids so I had some fun with it except for when a certain teacher made me help with a skit on friday.  I really dont like doing those things especially when they're well, like those ones.  But it was still fun.

We leave for connecticut on saturday!  I'm kind of excited, I'll admit I wasnt really excited about it before.  I've had a pretty good summer and it's been going kind of slow.  I was afraid of going to connecticut and the rest of the summer just fly by.  But I'm kind of excited now, I think it's gonna be fun.  But I really do not want to go back to school at all.  I wish it could just stay summer and speed through this year, I know everyone always says its supposed to be the best year  of your life to enjoy it, but I really just want to go to college.  Especially if it's at western, I'll have a little more summer there.

Well, I think I've talked long enough I think I'll just end it here.

Just crazy...

Well, life sure has been crazy lately.

I was fighting with my parents like crazy!  Ok, mostly just my mom.  We are total opposites on everything!  If I like something she can't.  It's always been like that but its always been tollerable.  Lately, its been bad, just really bad.  I'm about to turn 18 and she hates it, cause she cant tell me what to do and she knows it.  I pretty much know what I want to do with my life and where I want to go with things, I have plans but she calls them unrealistic dreams.  I know the difference between a dream and reality.  She is not happy with the western kentucky thing at all.  Not one single bit, she actually took my phone and my keys and told me i couldnt have them back if i was going to apply.  So i told her what she wanted to hear.  I still want to apply though, I want to go there and would give anything to be there.  She told me she wont help pay, but I was never expecting much help in the first place so it doesnt bother me.  I have offers on where I can live in the summer, or even during the school year.  I really havent had much patience with her lately at all.  I feel bad saying that but its true.  I've been thinking alot lately and I was debating on moving out soon.  Yea, I know your all probably laughing right now cause you dont think I could do it, especially since I dont work.  But I'm getting job, I'm workin on it right now.  I have a couple options, I would like to finish my senior year at forge with all my friends, but if it wasnt possible I would live.  I would kind of like to move in with my grandparents, they live in this little hick town where everybody knows everybody.  The highschool is tiny, and its pretty nice down there.  Their county residents also get a $7,000 discount for Western right off the bat so that could help too.  I know it would make my parents crazy though, and I'd feel bad.  But I'm absolutely miserable here and things just arent working out.  I'm not sure what to do.  I really am just completely lost.  Her whole problem is control, she has to have control all the time and she admits it.  She cant control me from western, and she knows it.  she was all for it before, she was pushing a school in kentucky before when she didnt like iwu, now  its different and unreasonable.  I'm goin crazy here........

Did you see that score???

So, I went to the yankees game on Monday and they lost 5-2.  It was still a good game, but they lost.  I wasn't all that happy, then yesterday they lost 19-1!!  That was just pathetic, I was embarassed to be a yankees fan.  I was afraid to come home today and see how bad the score was this time.  Well, I just checked it and they won 11-3!!!!  now that's the Yankees that I love!  So now all I have to say to all of you who have been rubbing it in my face is haha!

So my fourth of July was pretty good I guess.  Dana and I were supposed to go downtown with a group of people who invited us, and well to make the long story short they didn't really want us to go and things got messed up and we didnt go.  So we ended up just going for a walk around my neighborhood to think of something to do.  We found this bench at the intersection of Ridge and Snow so we sat there watchingt he fireworks from somewhere bc we had a great view.  Then we just went back to my house and made a fire and sat out there like all night.  It was fun, except my marshmallow caught on fire so I was waving it around and it flew off and welded itself to my arm and burned me.  That wasn't fun, it hurt really bad and I felt like an idiot.  I now have like burn marks on my arm.

So that was an interesting fourth of July...

Christie and Tiff's future plan

Yep, me and Christie planned the next four to five years of our lives today.  We were thinking about it before, but today we made definite decisions.

First, we're going to get through my senior year and her junior year.  Then I'm gonna graduate and go to Western and she's gonna finish her senior year.  Then she's gonna graduate and come to Western, and we're gonna room together my sophomore year and her freshmen year.  Then that summer we're just going to get an apartment somewhere around there and live there instead of on campus the next few years.  We also decided to live on ramon noodles, mac and cheese, pizza rolls, smores, and pop tarts.  Oh, She's also going to be my maid of honor, and I'm going to be hers too whenever that time comes.  But we decided we're going to live in the south because we just don't like it here and we just don't fit in all that well here.  We also just want to get away from all the crap that's here.  I want to start over, well somewhat.  There' s just stuff here for both of us we want to get away from and be able to forget about or leave in the past.  So there's our future.  Do ya like it?  Cause we love it, we can wear cowboy hats, overalls, and listen to country music non-stop and never be made fun of...ever!  Ok, I'm not really a big fan of overalls so I wouldnt wear them, but thats all Christie keeps talkin about, how she can wear her overalls again.

Man I can't wait for the future...

Pretty good day I guess...

Today was a pretty good day I think.

I really didn't accomplish anything to be honest with you.  Well, we finished the float does that count?  That's about all I really did, work wise that is.

Dana came over tonight and we sat in the backyard and made a fire.  I think we sat there just talking and watching the fire for like 4 and a half hours.  It was just so realxing, I like doing little stuff like that.  It's fun and it just makes things so relaxed.  It felt really nice to just sit there with Dana and Britt talking.  I ate like 10 marshmallows too.  Those were pretty good.  My throat kind of hurts now though from inhaling all that smoke.  We listened to Johnny Cash, Tim McGraw, and Keither Urban the whole time too.  It was a lot of fun.

Do you have like one person in your life that always makes you feel bad for everything?  Cause I sure do.  That one person was a real jerk before.  I honestly lost a lot of respect for them.  They make everything seem like my fault, even when I didn't do a thing.  It just really frustrates me a lot.  It's just like never ending, I mean when is it ever gonna stop.  I guess I just have to let it go, it doesnt matter anymore.